Spring Cleaning

Earlier in the week, random memories were inundating my thoughts, but I could not trace them to a reason. Because they were so varied and unexpected, they surprised me and resulted in a sense of probably needless longing for improbable situations. Do I feel the same way today? No. I am motivated to do a variation on a theme of spring cleaning.

One of the easiest things for me to clean is my drafts section of my blog--one of the easiest things for me to clean should be my drafts section.

The very first draft was written on my last day of high school, and it has been sitting around unpublished for years. To publish it would be to cross a line I shouldn't cross. It would be taking a step backward to points where I should have been going forward in another direction. None of that really matters that much in the present though, anyway.

"And what I chase won't set me free," is a line that pops into my head when my mind wanders to the past and the present, to the what was and to the what isn't.

The mental clutter and physical clutter clean up did actually begin in January, but this is phase two. Really, and perhaps unfortunately, it naturally will always be an on-going thing to some degree.

Somehow this little period in time inserts late 90s alternative rock music into my head...which is extremely rare and strange for my mind. Particularly my brain's version of Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls plays itself over the past week. Weird.

I'm just going to print out that old draft, delete the draft from my draft section, and take the print copy and stick it somewhere were I keep mementos with sentimental qualities.

The best reasons I can come up with for flashbacks and 90s alternative rock is the movement toward spring and the slightly different set of people that life introduces from time to time. I am not feeling anything "magical" for this spring. Spring 2008 and March 2010 are important for reasons related to beautiful, unexpected feelings and events.